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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

I Miss Himmmmm So Muchhhh!!!
All Awhile its was youuu ~
Ive got a suprise for him,its too show how sincer i am..
Its gonna suprise you readers too.. Haha!
Stay tune. lol. :))

| 3:49:00 PM |

Theres more.. cant possible to fit in lor. hee!
Anyway.. im missing him!! So muchh!
He will be back tomorrow. *Smile Widely*
Strike 1030p.m yesterday he messaged me..
Those messages touches me & as if i felt the toughness days he had in camp.
Haiss.. He'll be complaining & cursing n ill be there comforting him till too sleep.
What to do? Like it or not.. you must go tru it dear!
"I rindu u, i takot slalu pat dlm camp,u sorang2 pat luar cari orang laen"
"Dont worry dear.. I still have my family..
They the one who accompany me when you're not there...
Now my life is just waiting for ur return &
spend the time together thats all i wanting for right now.."

Still, we have no plan in mind for CountDown.. hmm..
Girlfriends asking me out to Clubbing for CountDown...
Havent decide yet.. But this time round ill CountDown a New Year with
My NS man,Shahfiq. for sure~

Was browsing tru those pictures... Now, i believe that Love is BLIND.
Haha.
Happy New Year Everyone, 2009 !!
&
Happy 19th mothsary ,AfikSancii&EllyBabyy. Haa!
Love you.

| 10:10:00 AM |

Monday, December 29, 2008


BabyLove Bookout.
I find it troublesome lor. Too Boonlay Back to Pasir Ris took bus too ferry.
Then back again, Ferry,Bus,train too Boon Lay!!
Pathetic.
Poor deary. First bookout was on Christmas eve, then back to Tekong on
Christmas night itself. Then Bookout again on Saturday morning.Then
Bookin again yesterday night. :(
Then this coming Wednesday(Countdown) bookout again.. Phew~
Luck for me this month theres many holidays.. hee!

Well, everything went fine...
Went out with his Ns friends to Marina??! Mcm siak.
Saturday night lagi !! At MARINA!!!? Pfft..
Drag my feet there to tag along...
Have some drink session & usual la kan they talk about NS stuffs..
Took the last train homee.....
My NS man.
I love you.
Ouh.. Forever in love. I promise myself i will settle down aite baby.
Cutt down those night life when you are in camp.
Dont jump to conclusion.
Stop hidding my feelings.
Etc.
&& dont forget ur promises too aites?
See you soon love...

Someone just PISS ME OFF!!
Jadi orang tkmu suke buat mulut bleh?! Sial.
Depan pompan kao tktao nk mngaku!
Jantan kelepeh!! Da tk mngaku beh mati kan kawan.
Bodoh besar2 kan cerite.Skg bukan kite je carik ko!
Kwn ko pon tgh carik ko.Standby je la kan..
Dier tkde baru nk kol ako mngaku bersalah?! Depan Shahfiq
asl tktao nk mngaku bodoh?! Kental uh kao.
Yeye je nk turun smlm..Haa.
Member divert call babe!! Msg tk reply! Buay~
Dasar Kelepeh kan... Trpakse la kite main blkng eh gini..
Yg pompan dier pon bodoh jantan mcm sial masih nk cover pantat dier!!
Just stupid of you.
(I know you will read this!)

| 9:55:00 AM |

Wednesday, December 24, 2008






What do you think about my little new baby Erwin?

Muhd Erwin..LOL !

| 10:28:00 AM |

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Yeah. A little of adjustment.
Just killing time in my office!!
Uggh. Im so excited for tomorrow!!
Hope it turn out well~
Amin.
All i want for Christmas is youu.... !!

| 2:58:00 PM |

God gift.
My eyes are swollen. Like finally,
hes switch ON his handphone.
Guess what?! He fought inside!!.
See,i sense something wrong!
Luckily,LUCKILY AH!! he escaped & managed to book out
tomorrow! YA??! TOMORROW!!! :))
Stop your nonsence ah! Stop being gangster!
Pls be friendster for goddness sake!
tsk.

Theres alot to settle. ALOT.
After his next book in we need to start afresh.
Yes,i mean it.
"Im gonna take 3days Mc after this book out,
gonna spent my time with you!! Tkleh tahan
uhh.Backbone hurts!!"
"Kental ahh kao!.Haha."
"Waliaoo.. Never smoke okay, 3days straight!"
"Wahh.Something new! Good la. Stop smoking then.Haha!"
"Ko da stop smoking baru bobal dgn ku kay.."
"Hahahahaha!"

Its like tomorrow!!! Finaaalllyyy.....

Roses are red. Some are blue.. white.. pink.. LMAO! lol.

| 9:46:00 AM |

Monday, December 22, 2008


"no offense but,the thing about the two of you is..
both of you are allowing tension to increase between you two....
now see here,
there's no proof that both of them have feelings towards each other...
true?
it's just some stupid comment an idiot made...
now if you want to allow that to affect you,
then of course this relationship will turn out sour...
but if you were to actually
wave it aside and turst him that he's not like that...
what's there to worry?
i mean,i know you'll get worried and all...
but the thing about it is..there's not proof..
him inside and you outside,insecurities and accusations will arise...
no doubt about that..
but believe me if i were to say,it's actually normal..
now if both of you wanna get worked up instead of think rationally,
then it'll be alot worse..
the situation you're in now..
it takes alot of giving in and compromising..and i mean,ALOT.."


"baby,i know it's hard and all..but hang in there okay?
be strong...
keep in mind that fik loves you,a whole lot..
to the extent that we were neglected
but that's beside the point...
he loves you...
he's only affected by the training and the sun and the insects in tekong...
that's why they say,ns makes people go crazy.."
-Encouragement Words from Deary Nas.


Nah~ Bro...
He actually "paito" me before because of you guys.. He loves you guys alot.
He does love you guys more than me.. :))
Only me,myself knew it....

Once again,thanx Nas...

| 12:59:00 PM |


Ive been sincerly waiting for him.
But atlast i was accused. "If you didnt trust me, who else should trust me?!"
I wasnt given the chance to explain.
How should i explain??!
He have been switching off his handphone the last two days.
Mom giving me the positive words as "Mybe he too tired & straight to sleep.."
"...or mybe he saving his cerdit till Wed his bookout day to contact you??"
Thanks mom... but but i need an explaination from him.
He should not be MIA just like that.
Mind you,YOU IN TEKONG not at the block
beside Jurong Library ,MR!!
Must i be worried??! Ask urself.
Does he ever miss me??
Does he ever think of me?!
Either care for me or noeing what im doing outside??!
What the fcuk??!

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| 9:49:00 AM |

Friday, December 19, 2008


St James ladies nyte was 60% bored lor.
The music was suxs. -___-
Ruby was drunk!!
The free drink was so loong that thanks to "someone"
who que for us as me n Ruby
dance on the podium! Haha.
After tired of dancing, still we havent get our drinks! Tsk.
Too Hangover still,we skip Dblo~~~ :'(

Insecure, Nightmares, Giving up, Sincerly, Truthness etc...
Someone whispered "You think too much...."
"Promise me dont hurt him when hes inside.
Cos i knew how its feel.
Its a hard time for him, inside.
So loosen it for him outside.. promise would u?"
I cried my heart out that night & just nodded!

So far thru out life,
Ive learned tat nobody & no one is prefect.
We all fail at some point in our lives....
Boys will tell u everything u wanna hear,
whispering to u sweet thing & then leave u wif a broken heart
& blood shot eyes...
Somone tat u always thought would be there for u,
care about u & love u will of a sudden turn their back
when u dissapoint them.
Someone is always going to hate u
& talk bad about u no matter what.
though u did them no wrong!
Bestfrens are nt always the best.
Fall in love wif the person u never tot u would & tru all of tis u
still find a reason to smile,laugh & be happy.. y?
cos as u go tru all tis, u learn to grow strong.
u find out who really loves u & who to forgive the one who dont.
So live,love &let it be.

Im soooo missing him!! 4days to goo~ :D

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| 8:50:00 AM |

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Im sick.
Its getting worst after updating my nightmare.
Damn it.
My biggest nightmare seems getting nearer.
Its getting closer as day goes by.
Is my nightmare getting to arrive soon?
I tend to give up.
Cos ive been there once.
I dont want to repeat it.
Oh goddness im crying.
This is my weakness.
Till now its will always remain.
Ill keep it to myself for now.
Im just just .... insecure.

| 9:46:00 AM |

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Just received a call from her,beloved Ruby.
Gonna get our body move @St James tomorrow
followed by Dbl o with the others the next day.
(kepade yg kepo2 tu smue, Shahfiq knows about it! ;D tkyah nk report2 !! ugh~)
Babe,i miss you already laa. Haha!.See you~
More gossip cuming up!! LOL.

Its been 4 days already. Im so missing him!
Received his call after her.
"Babbbby!! Cepat angkat telephone?"
"Was talking to byby laaa.."
"Ouh.. I miss you la dear!!"
"Hah.Same here..Ngah buatpe ny??"
"Kat bank tgh nk tukar baju.."
"Drill eh??? HAHAHA.Padan Muke!!"
"Jahat.. Alik pegi mane2 tk nari??"(pragai spot check!)
"tk laaa..duk umahh. bsok da nk kwa..penat seh."
"Tao pon penat....You balik 'kene' uh!! Da lame tk kene kan!!"
"Hahah! LOL. Sempat kao ehh.. Cnferm klua nafus binatang!! Takot sia ako!"
"LOL.Siak ahh kao!!I tk kesah 'kene' jgkk...Standby..24 i alek... hehehe"
ROFL~ as usual!! Pfft~ :D
I LOVE YOU,SHAHFIQ!

| 11:40:00 AM |

Monday, December 15, 2008


Yeah Fik gone too NS oreadi liao. It have been 2days already.
Didnt manage to sent him!! :( His dad sent him there wif family, no tix left!!
I spent my weekends @home!! Thank god he bought himself a handphone to contact.
But it like only after 9 plus till he get the chance to call me. :(
I spent my last night with him. We didnt manage our time for each other.
Im busy working & fyi ive two job now just to save up money to pay my hospital bill !!.
As for him,he saving up money for his NS stuff.
We kinda hve no time to spent time with.
Yes.We ate alooot!! Haha.

Sorry!
Sorry,Sorry!!

Sorryyyy,AGAIN!!
&& AGAIN sorrry!!

hee..SOoooorryyy....

Those sorry pictures.All fik's faces were either half or not ready!I juz keep my handphone camera snapping! Y??! Cos we planned to take our very first neoprint!But not our luck.The fcuking neoprint was closed! IDIOT!.
I was fcuking frustrated lor.

Fik still got the cheek to walk around the mall & into Precious Thought.I was busy browsing tru the earing holder n neglacted fik! Suddenly fik tap my shoulder,immediately i turn,not his luck i saw he holding a plastic bag with a bear inside!!He was trying to hide it somehow. Haha.

How sweeet !! I was blushing lor!! Suprise.Suprise! Thanks baby. I love it.

The Message ont the Bear's T-shirt touches me!!


On behalf on fik, I would like to apologise to you guys. I didnt know you guys planning for an outing! Seriously,i dont know! It was a last min one as i not need to work at night that day & decided to spent time with him.If only i knew eu guys are meeting,i wouldnt have to ruin it..I did asked him why must you lied to them,n y cant you just say that he went out with me. Guess what he replied "I dont know if they understand. He dont want to be frame "Nonok"

Yes. I understnd him.. he didnt want you guys to look down on him just because he went & spent time with me even though it was a lastmin one. Ask yourself? Do you guys will understnd it if he tell you guys the truth??? *think* Theres must always be "Siak ahh..tk bes2 dgn elly" "Siakk ahh... Hari2 dgn elly..dgn kite tkleh pe...." True??

Before i forgot,I like to wish "Big Congrats to Irna Iryanti for her engangement day!"
Happy Always for the both of you!~
Looking foward for ur Wedding day hor!! Hee. :))
You look doubly gorgeous that day babe!! :D(sorry curik pix) heh.

| 9:27:00 AM |

Friday, December 12, 2008


Its FRIDAY!!
But suprisely, i dont feel excited for my weekends!
I feel 'im about to be alone. :'(
Fik leaving me.... Time run so fast.
Its around 27hours more till say bye2 to babylove.
Uggh!! *snap* I shud be strong & help Fik to pull through..
Its a nightmare for him to serve NS.Haha.
But what to do?? U a man Shahfiq!! LOL.
Dun worry baby.. Be strong.
I believe in u.. Its will only be 2weeks(obviously its gonna be lyke 2yrs for me!!).
But its ok.Stay cool. Im waiting for u!! Teehee. BOTAK soon huh!
Like as if never seen u botak like that. Haha.
I'll took care of myself aites.. No worries hunny..
Gonna miss u muchh!!.

Gonna sent fik to Tekong tomorrow.
He insist of me & his parents to sent him!
He said he gonna go there alone..
Pleading him that im gonna sent him!!
i dont care! i dont care!!
He needs his handphone when hes in to contact me.
So i purposely took it & use it as my tool to treated him!!
I even treated him that ill not going home
& stayed at frens house if he still didnt allow me to sent him!!(so spoiled!!) hahha.
LOL.
Ya,well mission done! I can sent himmmm!! Yeahh..
The reason he dont want anyone to sent him is jz because :
"The one who sent me will make me miss the most!!"-Babylove.
='(
Still i dont care!!!
ILY.

| 1:59:00 PM |

Thursday, December 11, 2008

I did myself clear. Im not the one who make him not to mix wif u guys.
Stop accusing me. U guys need to reflect things before finding fault.
Wateva it is.He misses u guys,i noe. So do i actually. :))

| 3:38:00 PM |

Here it goes AGAIN.
I discovered something.Its Dejavu. && i dont want that Dejavu to repeat.
All this while its been passing parcel. Blaming one another. again & again.
Wondering, u love it this way?Cause i dont.
& trying to make it stop.But i failed. Pleading for an end.
Turn out to be this way(right now).
Im hurt more than u do,sir. Picking myself up right now.
Gonna give u some space, u keep exploding without a reason n it will always effect on me.
Fair enuf? No.I dont think so.Obviously!

U keep pestering me to settle down with u,pulling me away from enjoyment.
But hey, i always asked u to tag along. But u insist!! My fault??
U the one who too presure of upcoming of NS life!
U keep busy ur life with work work & again work.No problem with that.
But how about me??
Pulling me away from meeting with gfs..but u there busy working???Which is which?!
Are u expecting me to just stay home & wait for u to come home late midnight?? Thats it?! Gosh!! U dont played the game fair here Mr! Wheres my life??
I dunmind spending time with u,every outing we planned turn out rotten!!
Do u ever think of getting us a chance to spend time with??
Like hello~ One more day too go sir!! *snap**snap*

Nah.But it too late. Those convo we did yesterday hurts me deeper....
Some things are best left unsaid !

What the fcuk actually you want!!?? Bitch!!!

meet ups with Ruby babyy!!accompany her to wrote letter to her beloved one inside.
@Mcafe yesterday.
Wish u all the best Ruby!. Im happy for u && ya im always here aites! :))
Forget about the ones whooo are damn stupid to leave u! LOL. Especially that pathetic jerk!
That wannabe PLAYER!!! like duhhh~ ily.

| 11:08:00 AM |

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Been missing out lots of updates huh!! *eyebrow*
Was away too Malaysia liao for Hari Raya Haji...
Will updates all the pictures once i receive it ALL!!!
(SHAFIQAH PLS TAKE NOTE)haaa.
Friday evening; Met Eera-Darlynke to Lot1. She treat me for dinner(PizzaHut)
Thnks babe! Appreciated. :))
Updates*

My resting Week.

17th too St James.

18th too Dbl O.

7,8,9 Chalet.

10th unemployed&bankrupt!!!!! *faint*



| 1:40:00 PM |

Thursday, December 4, 2008




Boyfriend.
I know im in wrong this far.I tend to rebel towards your advise & get wild.
& i even ran from you.After all those ups& down we been tru.
Yes i admit i just realise it.Cause why?
Because i kept enjoying my life & "Friends come first" thing.
I knew i upset you alot.
I could only say Sorry to you & hope you forgive me. I knew you could forgive me but you wouldnt forget it. I did a biggest mistake of neglacting you this time. I regret it for sure.
Somemore you leaving me soon for NS. What am i doing????! *SHOUT*
Im just feel guilty.
& how much i love you even more when i saw our pictures in your wallet.
& i heard whole Sheraton tower knew that you the only guy whu keeps my picture in wallet.
How sweet!!~ heee. I just cant get enuf of you baby.
Ohmy, everyone counting down & barely excited about the Zoukout thingy where else for me im running away from it.
Like hello~ Its fik's day to book in to fcuking TEKONG!!! Tsk.
Im gonna miss you baby..
P/S: Thanks For the Mango Tube baby & the gold ear-ings.!!!
Meeting Ruby today @DBL O.
"Dont worry aites baby.Im here,we'll partttyyy hard tonight aites hunny. Shake off those stress & come dance with me aites babe! Im sure gonna make you laugh like hell & enjoy yourself today babe! For sure.. See you. I love youu!!"
P/S: Thanks For the Mango Tanktop babe!!


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| 11:46:00 AM |

Wednesday, December 3, 2008


Its been awhileeee, i ddnt blog.
Well here it goes,
My weekends Life.

Attended Melayu-sg pit.. Fun i must say.
Haha.What i expected didnot happened on that day.(Its a good thing actually.)haa.
Came down with Yus(Watanabey)& dearest Saf.
Games,Night tour,Makan timeee.. && drinking session.(Rasberry Vodka) Uuulalala~
A cup after another. *Tipsy babe*
Then to Kak bunga house. Slacking till 10a.m *Without Sleep* Uggh!
Otw home from habourfront to boonlay. *Trip liao*


Reach home,took short nap. A tiff going on with boifey..
Stress up called up gfs to "Zirca" .Turn out it was a trance night! Boringgg~!
To usual place St James..
Get too tipsy,guess i was too tired && took too much chemical.LOL
Boifey came down n fetch me home. Thnks baby~

| 11:44:00 AM |