It's faith in something & enthusiasm for something that makes a life worth living.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

i dont ask for more.

All i want is to be with you,to be care for,

you to be here sincerly,be pampered by ur side etc..

These are just the things that what a girl wants.(Basic)

Cant You achieve that ???!

What are you thinking?

You begging me to stay when i decided to go.

You dun asked for more just me here to stay.

You apologise to me of ur past attitudes!

But still..

Guess you have not waken up.

Im speechless baby.

Him there waiting.Im here still wanting to stay with you.

Without failed he msg me.Saying he still going on waiting.

I do ignored the messages and here still waiting for you!

Every single mistakes you did,you didnt realised!

& blaming me i got angry without a reason.

Im owaes here waiting for ur calls.Every morning you wake up,every

evening you came home from work...

But everytime you called,i smile but i intend to get angry!

I miss you,but i scolded you and ended the calls by slamming the phone???

How should i understand you as i dont understand myself !!??

You asking me why;i couldnt even answered ...

My feelings faded towards you-NEVER!!!

| 11:14:00 PM |

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Ive once said,i was there with you to have/make me secure in those arms.I believe you could.

You knew about my past.You know how he beat me up everytime he took those drugs.

You took my heart from him when he was inside.I ran to those arms of yours.

Maybe you dont know how i actually felt.

Guys out there,pls do tell hym how i felt after you guys read this.

Cos im not answering his calls & will be changing my no. soon without him knoeing.

I felt insult after hearing those phrases about a year.

As if you looking forward of giving back my heart to him.

You knew i suffered before!!

Let me,myself bring my heart to him.

Ive moved.

You pleading and taking back your words just now.

but i turn myself to deaf!

Ive suffered alot so does you, this relationship.

The question was asked;

"Who does you suffered most???"

Suprisely,i answered

"YOU!"

Simple,I suffered more with you cause i love you the most!

I never love a guy,the way i love you.

To you or some people would said that sometimes we fight over a small

matter.But still i cried n stuffs.

Simple.How small the cut is,but still it bleeds.

Im here really forcing myself to go back to him.

But deep inside im scared!!For ur sake,i will.

He now turns to be a drug-addict!The time

he turns that way,his anger will be cool off by beating me up.

Cos i exprienced before.

Luckily fate came,for me to know you.

Thats the reason i ran to you!

You kept pestering me to go back to him ,everytime we fight.
So i took it real.
Thought it,mybe the best for you,as i dont even one to hurt you
nomore.

You told me to think.
Yes i did.Guess it time for you to push me back to him.
ive no one else.Its either You or Him.
I choose him,cause let me suffered in his hand rather than yours.
Cause i dont want to hate you one day.
I treasured alot in our relationship.
I did sacrifice for it n even give in when its ur wrong so did you.

But still im hopping that you will come back for me when i cant
endured the suffer.Please.
And please come back when you changed.

You should know what i hate most about you.Lied !
Yes.You lied alot to me.A lot.
Mostly thats what i suffered in our relationship.

Maybe people would think im stupid,going back with him.

But this what you want,shahfiq.

You said,you angry the point of time and it slip out of ur mouth.

Have you think what i felt???

It been a year,eu kept saying that.

How shud i endure it???

I feel insult !

You said im too embarrased to be with you!

No! I always talk about you to my frens,siblings and even my mother!

I kept praising you here n there!!

Why should i embarrased of you being with me??

Im proud of having you with me!

And ya,No! This not revenge or stuff that you think!

It just my decision to grant those wishes you love to utter!

Dont put those blames on me.

You said, i didnt trust you!

Ya true,BUT i did TRYING!!!

You didnt give me the chance too !

You told me,You also did not trust me as you were working im outside!??

So what the hell am i doing??

Everyday after work,i straight went back home??

And waiting for you to finished work???!!
Guess you didnt appreciate me..

Guess that we just need our own time and think...

P/S: I Love You.

Labels: Do take me home

| 3:52:00 PM |

You make me do this !

Its actually for you ! I kept hearing those phrases eu utter !

No.I will not be happy with hym ! You make me go !

You said,you dont trust me neither do i !

I asked, then why we still together ???!

Cos we love one another !

To Love we need Trust !

Where is it ?!

Then eu kept repeating that phrase !

Ok.Im over it.Ill do what that phrase meant !For you,actually.

Not me....

Appreciated you asked,would i be happy??!

I lied.BUt deep inside NO!

You told me to move on with him.

Ill will.

Ill grant ur wish.

As i said its for you,not me....

Labels: when i with him.ill wait for the day you come n take me home.

| 12:24:00 PM |

Monday, August 25, 2008

Unexpected; Time run so fast.

before,

1year 3months

Get to know "Budak2 ArtPark".As they approached me while me&one of my ITEmate

lepaking @"Pondok Kuning".

As that point of time im so sick of school life n i find ITE booorinnggg~

"Budak2 ArtPark" told me to lepak with them the next day.So i started lepak

everyday w/o fail lepaking with them.

Then this one day after school i met them for awhile n have a chitchat with em' as pernormal.

Suddenly one of them said

"Palat!(one of Budak ArtPark also) Abang kau laah.."

Then this guy,wearing SPEC! &CAP came with "Stormking"(roll ur own tobacco)

Everybody there stand and approach him.

He sat with us.I was getting bored cos this pathetic guy kept toking "FANATIC"

Walaooweiiii !! Asyik dier je bobal !!!

He approach me;

"Skola ITE Clementi eh?"

I gave a fcuking face & said

"Bukan ah! ITE Macpherson uhh."

That where i ferst met Shahfiq! Hahhaaa. I hate him.I find him iiriiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttaatinnngg siiiaa!!

hhaha.

The next day,Lepak again.Den "here come the PATHETIC GUY,Shahfiq!"

Serious shit i was pissed on that tyme! Sumpah!hahaha.

I didnt even talk to hym.He approached me again & as if wanna to start a topic

"Kau skola ITE Macpherson,kenal...blahblahblah.."

hahhaaa

I was lykeeeee...

"Tak.Tak.Tak.Uhh Kenal2..Tak..Kenal.."

hahhaa.But i suddenly something caught my eyes!! His lip!! Hahha.Hangat dehh!~

Sexy siot..Lagi2 when the part he light up his "StormKing".

Then its 11+.Everyone went home.Accept for Zul,Shahfiq&Nut(my ITEmate) they sent

me home as they wanted

to go to Shahfiq's cousin place and for Nut she took the same bus as which is infront of my block.

This the funny part,it was a last minute plan that Shahfiq wanted to make a visit to his

cousin's place so he bought a hair gel from nearby shop and do his hair.

Its tyme for me to went up.He told me to keep the gel.I was lyke

what the hell???Eu going to ur cousin house pe??Simpan sane suda ahh..hahha.Den i realise

something fishy.hahha.He uses his gel to make an excuse to meet me again!! haha.

I was told by Nut,that Shahfiq asked for my no.

She gave it to Shahfiq but no pen/paper/handphone to save it.

So he took his lighter,at the tip of the lighter is the metal,he bend it upwards.

He uses the sharp end that he bended to sracth his hand of my no.

Ouch!!.

Okay.After that i knew he is wooing me.

Cut it short.

He confess he love me &our ferst kiss @ArtPark under the sky which i found out that it

forming a crocodile brand "Lacoste".

Hahhaa. =))

"Life is full of uncertainty. When it's time to let go, you have to let go. He will be in your heart no matter where he is. Just know that you have wonderful memories of him. Take comfort in that." -Natalie Chi Meishan

Labels: elly, much love

| 1:34:00 PM |

*Saaayyyaaaang*

Thats what i called him !=)

*Tempang/Temm*

Thats what my mom&dad called him.
hahha.
Ya.He involved in commiting sucide the other day..
Not really.It was actually an accident.He love chasing those birds away.
Guess that he overchased the birds & ......

downnnn.
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He fell down the 4th storey flat.
We didnt aware of it.Its my Mom who aware of it as olwaes 5.00am
he would "Meooow!" infront of my mom&dad's room.But that day he didnt.So mom getting
curious n wake everybody up to find him!
Still no where to be found in the house.

But suprisely i came home from work.Around 11pm.
Everyone in the living room were crowding the cat as my mom told me
they found him near the drain.
My dad fetch my mom from his course class & was laughing & talking loudly on their way
home.Suddenly there a familiar "Meowww" that getting louder n louder!
(As if its calling my mom&dad)
N its Sayyannng!!
He rolled&rolled(step manje gtu..)on the ground when he saw my mom&dad.
Dad carry him up,home.

He got himself a scar there below his pinknose!
But its ok.its getting invisible though.
And sadly.He right leg "Tempang".

But now i guess he recovering soon.=))

The one who soooo "manjee" in my family !!

| 10:47:00 AM |

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Based on True Love Story.

2005

Every Night she would kill her time chatting online.Many types of guys in different types of character&tones of voices.There one night,he chatted online & getting to know this guy "Lan".

And they started changing numbers.She called him.Lan confrence in her line together with his fren "Yusri".They get to know each other.Yusri approached her to introduce him another girl to join in the confrence.So she did.She invited her bestfren "Nur".Almost every night they continue the confrence calls.Without fail.So one day she&Nur decided to meet them up.So they did.

She kinda upset of Lan as he was not the guy he expecting for.Her eye started to laid on Yusri.The feeling goes the same to Yusri.Yusri cant get his eye on her.

After the meet up.She confess her feelings to Nur telling that she falling for Yusri.

The night then.They split up lines.As Lan wanted to talk to her in private on the phone.
He fell for her.But she doesnt.She trying to change the topic to confrence in back with the rest.
After few days.Nur told her that she& Yusri was an item.She just smile&really happy for Nur.
She stopped joining the confrence & gave crap reason that she was too sleepy.

Nur asked her out the next day.She was curious cause she didnt know where Nur bringing her.

They stopped at Woodlands.Nur automatically told her that they meeting Yusri&Lan.She was pissed.She just kept silent.Yusri brought us to chill down at his home.She sat one side of the corner & just pretend shes ok with it.Without them noticing,Tears roll down as she looked Yusri&Nur happily hugging&kissing one another.

The next 2days.She received a call from a familiar number.She ans it.It was Yusri !She was lyke speechless.The conversation goes lyke this:

Yusri: Hello.Buat ape?

She: Err.. tak buat pape.Tak call Nur??

Yusri: Tak ah.i blg i tdo.You.. i need to tell eu something.

She: Ape?Gadoh ngan Nur ke?Kenape ny?

Yusri: No.Kwn i ahh.

She: asal ngan kwn you??Lan??

Yusri: No!Ade la kwn i. A kenal dgn B.B kenal kn C dgn A. A kenal kan D to B&C. Pastu B blg C that B suke A. C sebernanye suke A tapi taknk langgar wire so C back off. B told C that D cn help B to get A if B help D to get C.So B pleaded C to go with D.So C sacrifice of B sake to go with D.Tap C tkde prasaan langsung dgn D. C suke sgt dgn A!camne ah??

She:i suggest eu tell C to go for the one he realii wants. or he will regret.Dun lie to ownself.

Yusri: Yes.He did.For ur info C is me.& the A is you..

She: What???!! you cant do this. How about Nur??

Yusri: Lao you suro i phikirkn pasal Nur,How about me???

She hang up the phone.She called Nur. Suddenly,Yusri called Nur. Nur told her to keep silence n put Yusri on conference.She felt guilty as Yusri wanted a break off with Nur & told Nur that he actually have feelings with She.

She rejected Yusri just to respect Nur's feelings.
From that day onwards.They stopped contacting.

2006

On she's birthday.Nur make a suprised meet up with She & Yusri @Bugis.

She was suprised !But sadly,after meeting him.Went back to the Mrt station.Nur pull She over & avoid she to look at something.She was really curious n force to turned her head.It was Yusri& another girl holding hand.

2007

She still have the strong feeling with Yusri.She misses him much. That point of time,She & Nur no longer close as usual as we went different paths as bz with each life.She called up Nur as Nur's new boyfriend is really close with Yusri.So She asked Nur,Yusri where about.Nur told She that Yusri was caught because he cut off his tagging & sentence to 8months. She told Nur that she wanted to wait for Yusri but Nur's boyfriend said someone is also waiting for him.So She back off.

And She now happily with her new boyfriend but still her half heart was there for Yusri.

After how many months then,Nur called She that Yusri looking for She.But sadly,She cant bare to lose her boyfriend.She dont want to cheat on her boyfriend.So half-hearted she stayed with her boyfriend.But still She in silent shes counting down Yusri day of realesed.

2008

Nur called up She.

Nur: Ako jumpe Yusri tadi,ngan mataer ako.. Ako bilang dier,yg kao tgh carik2 dier..
She: Da la Nur.Takpe laa..
Nur: Dengar dulu.. dier pon tgh carik2 kao !!Dier mintk no. kao.Tapi ku tk kasi dulu.Ku nk tnye ko dulu ny..sbab kn ko de mataer.Dier kate tkp..dier nk kwn je ngan ko! Dier nk tahu khabar ko jer...
She: Hais..Ku pon rindu dier siak.Ku almost give up sehh.Da nk masok 4tahun seh Nur!Da cm kekok plak ako nk bobal dgn dier.
Nur: K.tkpe ako confrence kan..

Confrence.

Nur:Yusri ! Ko peh lup kat dlm phone..
Yusri: hehhe.eh ??mane dier..
She:Yusri.eu ape khabar eh?
Yusri:Baek... You tolak no.eu laa seh.Yusri rindu eu seh...
She: hais..I miss Yusri jugak! (She pass her no.)

Confrence ended.

That nite.Yusri called She.Asking for a meet up.Not alone but with the rest as to respect that
She is someone's.Went to Nur's guy's crib.They chilled there.Theres no conversation between
Yusri& She.

Suddenly.Someone knock on the door.Nur's boyfriend open the door.

***:Dier mane??!!!
Nur's boyfriend: Ah?Dier tkde ah...

She knew that its her boyfriend.So She pull the door & went out.

She:Pe cete ny??!
***:Jantan mane tu ???!
She:Ape?? Tu la Yusri asal??
***:Baik per sial??!
She:Eh! Kao balek skg..Tolong laa..tkmu buat kecoh depan rumah org bleh tak??!!
*** keeps shouting!

She slapped ***.

Nur&his boyfriend stopped them...

Yusri comfort she.
Yusri: I rase bersalah ah you...I nk kwa tap i tktao nk side sape..Sebab mmg slh kite!
Tapi lao dier letak tgn kat eu tadi,i da mmg nk klua!!
She: I buat ny pon,i nk dgn eu... It been 4 yrs tao yusri ..!!
Yusri: Ya.I also waiting for ur return ...But nvrmind biar kali ni i tunggu eu.k?

She meet up with her boyfriend to seek for forgiveness & stopped contacting Yusri.

After that accident,She & his boyfriend rlntshp was unstabble.
She's boyfriend started to betray&now dare to beat her up in every fight.
Yusri was totally silent.
She was realii upset of her boyfriend behaviour the pass few months.

She started to get hold of Yusri.But still hard too.
Trying to get Yusri's no. from Nur's boyfriend.But he said ive deleted his no.

So she have no choice to endure her boyfriend attitude.It been months he silent himself.

18 aug 2008

The number that She was waiting for..SMS her!

"I love you.I harap u tak anggap kata2 i smue gurauan tau b.. I love u with all my heart! I will
wait for u now no matter what..I maybe tgh high/steam but my love for eu is true..Kali ini syg jgn ragu2 tau dgn i..I mmg perlukan u..

Syg.. I want u to know that this time i nak tunjuk kan u dan ingin u tahu yg this time i tak akn lepaskn peluang utk beri tahu kpd u yg i realy need u in my life..i taknk menyesal lagi..This time i really want u..i want eu to know MUHAMMAD YUSRI sngat2 syg pada eu...i taknak hlg eu lag..=( Dah telalu lama sangat i idam2kn utk amek eu sebagai kekasih i b..Tapi rite now i cant hve u by myself..I guess i have to wait again lah syg...But i will... "

She in big confussion now..
She's Boyfriend had started to worry of She didnt seem care more on him.& had chnges his way of attitude!But She kept thinking boyfriend cud repeats his attitude of beating her up/betraying him again.
Everynight back from work.He will said to She"I syg eu..I tknk hlg eu..N i takot hlg eu..."

Its now either stick to the one She have now/Yusri..

Labels: dont mind my grammers.=))

| 4:19:00 PM |

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Im on leave! So do Boifey~

Thnxs for National Day that i cud claim my annual leave.jyeahh.

Boifey brought me to Bugis Village to accompany him to get those faded jeans there.

We spent almost 2hours walking around& round&round again;the Bugis Village.

I get fed up with the crowds; like Hello! Its Monday but still~ pfft.gosh! Singapore mahh.

Pull Boifey hand to stop

"Ako lapar luhh! Mabok siak.. Pegi makan dulu ahh!"

Boifey replied

"Thought eu never ask..."

@#@$#%#@@!!@$@

What the hell ??!!??!

Hahahaa!!

I guess he noe me the best!! *chuckle*

Have our lunch @KFC.

Told bby

"K2,makan relek2 k..."

Bby

"K.... 1...2...3... Goo!!!"

hahahahaa!!

After that another round @Bugis Village.

But still there no eye-catching for Bby shirt.

He still bought his Jeans.

photographer; AfikSancii

*See boifey face! Fed up,Bus tk sampai2! hahha*

*Tak sampai lag Bus!*Lols

*Getting Bored...So... He nagged!!!*

Atlast we took cab!!

hahhahaa.

*Memorable one indeed !*

*dudok sorang sehhh*

*Then to Queensway as Boifey wanted to survey Couple slippers*
(Nike)

| 1:55:00 AM |

Friday, August 15, 2008

Seriously ! Idk what to update luhhh...

Errm.

K.For yesterday spend my my tyme after work with Nana.

*This ex-MinahRep(hahhas) is Nana*

Went to Vivo, went in & out shops, as Nana survey for undergament! Hahas.

Emm.For me,seriously i prefer TopShop underwears rather then La Senza.

For La Senza,i must say the bra's are in good qualities.

=))

Then proceed to Alley Bar,Nana's workplace.

*AlleyBar*

We chilled there and this "minahrep" err.. i mean "ex-minahrep"

hahhaha!

Kao Sal ??(inside joke)

hahhs

treat me LIME MARGARITA !

Okay.Im in love with Margarita ! Serious shit.Im sure craving for more!!

PayDay!PayDay!

Thanks Nana !!!!

after that i fetch boifey from work !

since i was nearby.

He kinda strange, i mean cam over-excited, i dont know why??!

hahhas.

He sent me home.Before that we smoke the last stick before heading home.

I started "Pantun" hahha!

Kat Sentosa tk ade ikan Yu,

I Love You.

he replied.

Jalan Kat Sentosa 2by2,

I Love You too!

I ans,

Cikgu ako sakit liver,

I Love You 234ever !!!

hahhahha!. He cracking his head out!

Still no respond.Hahhaha.

Dahi kau ade Tiam,

Abeh Diam ?????

hahhhaha! So i win lor! =D

| 11:01:00 AM |

Thursday, August 14, 2008

okay.

Meet Boifey before i head to fcuking normal life (work)!!

He passes me $4.00 & ez-link card to work as i overspend my pay.

He gonna get his pay today,i guess.

I love to spend things over target that i dun have enuf for my

transport&lunch time.

Selamat luh Baby ader! hahahas.

Saaaayyaaanngg diierrrrr ! Hahas. =D

But!

I couldnt run from his nagging session!

Uggh.It goes lyke this.

Its alwaes the same phrase when it come to this.

"I cakap ape!? Tolak tepi kan duit untuk makan dengan transport!

Barang tk perlu kao pegi beli ! Makan pastu nak mahal2!! Kao jgn sampai ako amek POSB

card kao ehh ..."

Haiyoooo.

*dier marah2 sayang tu* hehhs.

*He keeps on nagging so i took his pictures w/o him knoeing*

*blah*blaahhh*blaahhh*!!

*he with his favourite&owaes PJ !!*

hahaha!

I Love You !

| 10:53:00 AM |

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Hello !

Yeah. Got my free time now.Done my work & they formatted my computer.

Alhamdulilah.

To;( idk the name) that smart-looking,tall,malay guy,

Thanks for saving my life.Ive been suffering with that

slow system! Uggh.Finally =))

I must say, eu guys must be curious of my nicknames,yar?

EllyDele'on

EllyBabyy

EllyGold

Lets start with EllyGold;

hahha! Yar, get the nick Gold from my dearest fren

Nazzaty(Nut). She called me Gold while we lepaking @my ex house

i took care of my ex anak sedare name "Ellysha".

So, to different shape us from our skin color, she came up with nicknames,she

called me "EllyGold"-as we just when back from suntanning

& i used the Banana Boat(Gold Tan).

As for Ellysha,shes so pale white obviously

EllyWhite.Hahahs.Kinda lame, but i even love Color Gold

thats what makes me stick to the nick.Jyeahh! =D

As for EllyBabyy,

Ya actually that shud be my very first Nick ive used,given by my

ex(its was few years back.)

Ive not been using it as ive got the nick GOLD mahh.

hahhas.

So thinking of changing it lor.hahha.

But the day knoeing my Baby Afik.

He love to called me Ellybabyy!! Hahaa.

So Ellybabyy's nick still to be heared !(As long im still with my boifey!) hahhaa.

Now for EllyDele'on!

Hahha.

okay Watever.Actually i sick of EllyGold nick actually.

So i intend to change it.Hahhas.

It just mixture of my imagination & i just love the spelling.

Hahha.

so now,

STOP ASKING WHY MY NICKS

GOES LYKE THAT!

CAUSE I DID EXPLAIN !!!!

hahahahahahaa.

Joking-joking ! =D

| 4:21:00 PM |

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Met with boifey just now. I was complaining on the phone that my stomach drumming

inside while im otw home from work. He fetch me from boonlay interchnge

and treat me to Long John Silver. Yeahh!

Hahha.

I must say i was seriously hungry okay!

Thanks Babyy ! =)

Oh ya. ANW ! The shirt he wearing belongs to my dad

when he NS dulu ... Hahhas!!
Sheesh! My dad dunno about it hor !