It's faith in something & enthusiasm for something that makes a life worth living.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Masaii !!

Yesterday;
Caught up with flu + sore throat=Medical Leave !
hahhaa!!
Uggh. Now, caught up with bad headache but no MC as my Sick Leave left 4 oni jer sehh! =(
Which must 'tahan' till end of year..
Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!

| 10:03:00 AM |

Monday, July 28, 2008

My views on "Reflections on life"

Our life cannot always be full of happiness but it can always be full of love !

"He" who is blind to the view of ours souls, will not enjoy & see life as it is.

The more you plan,the less likely you will experience chance,therefore live life to the fullest.

A true friend is one who holds ur hand & thus touches ur heart.

When we get married, we won't know who lies ahead; until we hit the waves of life at sea.

Life is reality without an eraser !

Nothing in the future, will correct those moments that eu have missed in the past.

Don't waste time with someone who wont support eu in time of need.

Dont cry over what has happened in the past, but be happy that eu could enjoy the moment.

Always WORK;as if eu dont need money.

LOVE;as if nobody has hurt eu.

DANCE;as if nobody was watching eu.

SING;as if nobody was listening.

LIVE;as if this was paradise on earth.

Don't dispair, the nicest things will happen to eu when eu least expect them.

| 2:45:00 PM |

Bugis;Penisular;Marina Square;

Finally we both got the tyme to town !!!

*chuckle*

********

Siblings;

The one&only brother love!!

| 10:49:00 AM |

Friday, July 25, 2008

i dont even know what on earth am i doing!! hahaha

Fcuking boredom striked !! My CPU @work been taken for upgrade; it took

2days!! Ugghh! Fcukk. These are the outcome going to work(office)

w/o CPU !!!

Yeahhh! now i have it back liao!!

Fiiinnnaaalllyyyy !!!

| 4:09:00 PM |

Had a birthday suprise for deelarh !

ya; it was a success indeed... =)

p/s: "Lu kena beb!!"

| 4:00:00 PM |

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Happy 16th Birthday Deelarh!!

MissYou la sehh... Hahhas;

Da besarrr dierr~

Happy Owaes Hor!

***

Miss you Shahfiq!

Sitting here thinking;

Of the times you've hurt me

wondering why i still love you

Maybe it's ur eyes

the way they make me feel so good inside

or the way eu smile.

tat makes me feel that i've never been so happy in my life.

It's probably just the way eu are eu.

A funny,sweet,caring,cute guy that every girls dreams of.

but all the times eu hurt me.

i just dont understand

why i still love you.

***

| 11:13:00 AM |

Monday, July 21, 2008

Sunday 20th June 2008

Now get my Peaceful sleep as knoeing Bby's fine !

I woke up at 1plus. Bby still not awake.It passes 2+.

I received an unwanted called. "He" told me to come down Yishun to take the bill as the bill would always sent tru his house.So i thought of finished it all n wanting no more of "his" calls,i decided to collect the bill & settle it as soon.

Told bby about it.

He was fcuking disagree of me to go there alone.

He started accusing me stuffs !!

I were blow off!

Saying things that i really dont mean!

He kept slamming the phone !

I told hym to mit me.

So we did; n end up in fist fighting AGAIN!!

Cant help it;i cant control my tempered.

In the sudden;my stomach cramp; i dropped !

Bby pulled me up;i was really too weak to stand on my two feets.My views were in black&white.

Bby carried me(mcm baby!!) straight home.I was struggling in pain.He kept nagging to me!!

He told me to get myself rest&get some sleep.

Discovered i got my finger blueblack & cant straighten it sia!!Now im typing with one hand!How sad. =((

After i woke up;i felt a little better.Went to the hall;seeing bby mamam!

Kisses hym on the cheek&he feed me..

After tat i did Threading session to bby's!!

Taaaaddddaaaaa !!~ hahs. See that nose.Loving it; Err actually i fell in love with his lips ferst. =)

Sideburn Kodong ~ Grrr! Thanxs to "Gunting Rambot Shop" at Jurg West Lame!!

| 12:31:00 PM |

Sunday 20th June 2008

Waited Bby's called as usual @1 am back from work. I felt weird & sense something wrong ! Its was oready 3.30am. He still no where to be heard.I freak out & cried. I cant even close my eyes to sleep.So i went down to pioneermall Mc to check hym out there. But still hes not even there. My heart started beating very fast! Uggh. Went back home. I called up his fren still no sign of hym.Suddenly around 6+ am;my sister woke up & pass me her phone saying that Bby's on the line. Not yet saying a word; the phone when silent! I was bursting to tears all the way,feeling stress up & worried where the hack is this guy.I took a peek at the window; seeing a drunk bangla !! Fcccuuuuukkk!! not bangla its Bby siaa drunk!! I shouted. "Puki! Ko g mane?!! Naek atas skgg!"

Q&N session were done;

he went drinking at nearby coffee shop; ALONE! he tried calling me up but he cant get through me.(Guess i were busy calling up people to find hym!

Reason of geting hymself drunk: He felt insecure when i told hym im going town with sis. He started bursting to tears.He told me

Bby; "Asal eu suke marah2 i??"

Me; "Mane ku tk marah ko;tgk ahh pragai kao !Dari dulu memang ako slalu marah2 ko pe.. (in gurau)"

Bby;"Alaa. Skg i da sensitive sia ! Tktao asal sehh..

Hahhaha!
I laughed & hugged hym tight!! "iloveyou"

(Cibai kao ehh lap hingus smue kat baju ako!)

Den.. Bby's asthma attacked! He complained tat his heart beats so fast.He laid down on my lap.Fcuk! I was panic!! He said he too tired& difficult to catch his breath! So i quickly send him home. Luckily nothing srious ! hees. =D

Labels: loveyou hqeqhw

| 11:58:00 AM |

Saturday 29th July 2008

Upset with Bby ! I waited for his called; but he was fast asleep. Guess he tired. Ok~ He wake up & gave me a called. I were expecting he to ask me out since i misses hym truck loads ! But he dissapoint me & went out of house early to bugis acompany his fren & straight to work ! And informed me to stay home! God damn it. I were pissed as i been going home straight after work & expecting to mit hym on the weekend! Aggh !

So i gave hym a called

Me ;"Eh,fik tolak ako 15 ketol ku nk kwa ah ! Mendak ah pat umah !!"

Bby ;"Ko nk pegy mane pulakk???!!"

Me ;"Takyah tau laa!!"

(He slamed the phone)

Me ;"Bodoh pe?? Letak2 tepon???Bleh pinjam tk 15 ketol??!"

Bby ;"KAO NAK PEGY MANE LAA??!! DGN SAPE???!"

Me ;"Tkyah tao la siaall...

I admited i am harsh to bby laa! Sorry.=( I were really pissed off that tyme!

He did passed me the money;he was quite upset about my behaviour.He passed the money & Ferrero rocher chocolate!(my favourite) how sweet of hym.I took the money & asked me again where am i going; told hym tat i planned to go town strolling wif my sis.Guess he dont believe it as i seldom went to town with sis. So i just look hym from behind as he walks away.

Sis & i changed plan to go Jurong Point instead to buy Ayah's present as the next day its his birthday.So we did;i used tat money to buy Famous Amos cookies in "Red T box" (beautiful**) & sister bought tolberone chocolate on a preety purple box using her savings.

Ayah did Cherish our presents!

I knew ayah would share the cookies & chocolate with us! Hahaa. So we also did enjoyed the present as well !

"HAPPY 42TH BIRTHDAY AYAH!"

P:S/dun forget my Bebe's stuffs on ur coming bonus hor !! =D

| 11:15:00 AM |

Friday, July 18, 2008

to: hqeqhw (read it trbalik and eu will figure it out)

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

meet bby and boi'cute! hahha-firjani; after they finished work; at my void deck @2+a.m straight to pioneermall Mac. Hungry laaa.. Crap all the wwwwaaaaaayyyyyyyyy !! BOI"CUTE asyek TRIP uhhh kaoo !! hahhaa;

| 12:08:00 PM |

Thursday, July 17, 2008

bby just called..

frankly by. im now fcuking sriously insecure.even though eu tried to make me feel not. i tried to pretend but i cant help it. ill be ok if you there owaes beside me. but when eu no where to be seen; i felt this way. but sometimes looking those eyes of yours; makes me melt. i cant barely move my life foward without you. Everytime i tried to express my feelings eu answered the same thing "Kalau i da boleh trust you balik,kenape you tkleh trust i lagi???" *Sigh!*

Both of us made a big mistake.I did forgive eu; n eu did forgive me.. i noe for sure eu would not forget it so am i. But by not forgetting it do eu intend to do the same fcuking shit again ?? i promised myself i wont! i realised its just hurting myself back in the end.i seriously sure would lost my patient bby! n i donwan tat day to come honey. I prefer to know the trufth by eu rather noeing it myself or frm other people's mouth ! I kept thinking of wat eu done to me. Theres times in my life where i wish i just wanna run away,i just wish the pain would stop. I dont wanna cry no more! Why i feel eu acting suspiciously??!! Is it just me or you really being suspicious?? I wish the pain would go away. Its hard for me to live life to the fullest with all this bullshit.You promised me eu would not did the shit again as you menyesal n mngaku tat its a wrong move.. You even told me tat eu cant forgive urself.But im fcuking shit confused bby! Is this for real? haiiss..

Seriously how shud i get the trufth ???

I've been thinking about Giving Up.But there's something inside me that's holding On when we don't know who's right Or wrong we still stay strong keep movin' on.And I Promise i will never leave now would u do the same for me??

Im fcuking stress up;Keep thinking of this. Even though eu answered it before i dont feel sastified...

My All - Mariah Carey

Mariah Carey-MyAll

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
{guitar break}
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
(I'd) give my all for your love
Tonight

| 2:55:00 PM |

HYPOCRITE BODOH KAOOO !!!!!

Labels: sape2 yg terase ko peh pasal

| 9:57:00 AM |

Step Sapao siaaa Kaooo !!!

| 9:13:00 AM |

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

uggghh ! Another day at work !! Bored siaaa...

Decided to clean up my desk; found a old dusty Cd!

hahhas. All the old pictures in it. Hehhes.

Here were some of the pictures~

Meeting Bby after work;yeaahhhh ! Since he not working today mah..

Miss Hymm !!

| 12:26:00 PM |

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Aggghhhhhh !!!! Just woke up people!! GGoshh..NIGHTMARE SIAA!!

imagine me dream of Bby having relantionship with my sister behind my back !!(tkmo sia kaooo!!!) hahhhaa ...

Waliaoooo !!...

Hahhas. But i give in! =)) How generous am i !!

Hahhaass ! Hopefully its oni a "dreamm!!" hor~

LoveYouBby; =)

| 9:37:00 PM |

Monday, July 14, 2008

What a boyfriend should do....

• Grab her neck when you kiss her, it's a real turn on. Not her butt or boobs.

• Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything.

• When she's mad,hug her tight and don't let go then kiss her.

• When she says she's ok dont believe it...talk with her.

• Never cheat on her because 10 yrs later she'll still remember you.

• Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her.

• Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

• Treat her like a person and not something to show off for.

• Tease her and let her tease you back.

• Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

• Watch her favorite movie with her.

• TRUST HER WITH HER GUY FRIENDS

• Let her wear your clothes.

• When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

• Let her know she's important.

• Kiss her in

| 4:32:00 PM |

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Bby starts working oreadii !! =)) Im happy for hym laa sehh!

We going to miss each other as ill be working 830am-600pm.As bby 500pm-130am. =(

but nevermind we will find tyme for each other for sure ! =)

Miss eu so muchh Bby..

***

Going tru hard tyme just now handling "Baby"(my new cat). hahhha. Eiiyfa&I running around the house to avoid "Baby" to pass motion any how. But we failed! Dammn.. he urinated at the red basket ! But a relief his dropping was done at the toilet !!Grrrr~